Being weird or being normal it depends on the situation that my blood rise up that I can’t control my actions sometimes and some classmates of mine think of me as being an idiot but im trying to control it they think that I don’t know that they are like insulting me with their facial expression.
I consider myself to have multiple personality. When I’m sooo tired like in sports.. I get pissed off easily and I want to punch someone in the face or even break something. But if something has inspired me to do stupid things, I can do it and I can’t stop it because if I tried to stop it… My heart will just pound alot and my blood is rising like I will die of having a highblood pressure… sooooo no can do…. I cant stop the stupidity 😛
….. If im serious im really serious like I dont wanna joke around and I don’t wanna see other people’s stupidity… There are big difference when im at home and when im at school…. At school I can express alot but at home you will just see me sitting alone… playing the piano and feel the lonely song that I will play.. I play freely I can compose my own song and I can make my own song.. It depends on the feeling.. I play by ear… I took piano class last last last summer but it didn’t do any good … I can’t read notes even though I took the class… So I use my God gifted talent.. it is the talent to play by ear 🙂 ….
At home I blog, I am always active in facebook because of my other friends on the other part of the world… I can express the feelings that I can’t express in school.. Those feelings of the dark and lonely side of me …. I am alone in one big room with the stuff I have…
The Reason that I can’t study sometimes because I have this feeling that If I study this and it wont come out on the test then my time will be wasted for nothing … I’m really concious about the time and makes me wanna stare at my clock .. If I were to choose which is the best place for me …. I would choose the path of that something that would make me feel amazed in everyday life … like fantasy .. If only powers existed in real life, my life would not been boring..